Oh dear...
the day has arrived.
It is my birthday again.
Can I run and hide?
At my age and current life status, I hate my birthdays. However, this year, everyone seems to be setting out to try to make it a good one for me. It started out with receiving e-mails from friends with best wishes, then the cards, the soy steamer, the tulips, the cake and ice cream, and then the gifts, and phone calls too. Oh...and the co-workers who put a HUGE sign on my window at work facing traffic telling passersby to "Honk. It's my birthday!! I really laughed at that one. Then my boss let me go home early to start the celebrations here since it is also my daughter's birthday. Speaking of which...time to go do that.
Here's hoping this year will be a good one for me!!
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
How Long Must I Dream?
How long must a person dream before those dreams become a reality?
That is a question I struggle with daily. Some things seem to take forever and you still don't know if they will come to fruition.
Some mountains seems endless to climb. I'm told the real joy is in the journey, the thrill of the expectation, much like the build-up to Christmas, but those mountains seem to keep growing as I climb them.
How high are hurtles? Mine, I'm sure, seem to be 300 ft. high each. They seem insurmountable.
How big are stumbling stones? The ones I've encountered are as big as the rock of Gabraltar.
How much bramble can one encounter? Enough to get you so tangled up that you feel like you may fall and not be able to get back up.
How much does God give you? Not more than you can handle, but certainly gives you as much as you can handle at one time. Sometimes this is much more often than it really should be.
Right now I'm having a lot of moments when I feel as if I am encountering all of these things at once. Life is truly a rollercoaster ride. Please...someone stop this thing so I can have a break and hand me a rope and a ladder.
God, please help me reach those stars. I seem to keep wishing on someone else's star. They keep getting what I've been wishing for. When will it be my turn? My birthday is next week. What a wonderful present that would be.
That is a question I struggle with daily. Some things seem to take forever and you still don't know if they will come to fruition.
Some mountains seems endless to climb. I'm told the real joy is in the journey, the thrill of the expectation, much like the build-up to Christmas, but those mountains seem to keep growing as I climb them.
How high are hurtles? Mine, I'm sure, seem to be 300 ft. high each. They seem insurmountable.
How big are stumbling stones? The ones I've encountered are as big as the rock of Gabraltar.
How much bramble can one encounter? Enough to get you so tangled up that you feel like you may fall and not be able to get back up.
How much does God give you? Not more than you can handle, but certainly gives you as much as you can handle at one time. Sometimes this is much more often than it really should be.
Right now I'm having a lot of moments when I feel as if I am encountering all of these things at once. Life is truly a rollercoaster ride. Please...someone stop this thing so I can have a break and hand me a rope and a ladder.
God, please help me reach those stars. I seem to keep wishing on someone else's star. They keep getting what I've been wishing for. When will it be my turn? My birthday is next week. What a wonderful present that would be.
Monday, January 09, 2006
Screwed Again!!!
Such a great start to 2006!!
I just found out today that management at work has screwed me again. Sure makes you realize just how important you really are to them and reinforces that the only person concerned about seeing that your needs are met is yourself. The story of my life! There are roadblocks in every direction I turn in my life. I just can't get where I want and need to be.
I'm really tired of getting screwed without having sex. At least that would be pleasurable!!
I just found out today that management at work has screwed me again. Sure makes you realize just how important you really are to them and reinforces that the only person concerned about seeing that your needs are met is yourself. The story of my life! There are roadblocks in every direction I turn in my life. I just can't get where I want and need to be.
I'm really tired of getting screwed without having sex. At least that would be pleasurable!!